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Changes in My Life

There are so many changes in my life
I don’t know if it’s wrong or if it’s right
And I want you, want you by my side
Everything is gonna be alright

Changes in my life
I won’t leave you behind
Changes in my life
You will see in time

In life we’re always looking
Leave the past behind
We try to see the warnings and read all the signs
Sometimes you gotta take chances
Nothing stays the same
The world will keep on turning
Again and again, again and again

Changes in my life
You’re always on my mind
Changes in my life
I got you by my side

I know I haven’t been around much. Not here, or Facebook, or Twitter, and I sincerely apologize for my lack of updates. I’m not good at really opening up on here, and I didn’t want to post filler and make it look like everything is ok when its not.

As I type this, I’m still questioning how much I feel comfortable sharing on this blog, but then I think, how should I expect you guys to read this and listen to me if I’m not being real with you?

Last Friday, I got let go from my job. After a year at my first real job in the real world, I found myself unemployed due to “the economy.” All I could focus on were these thoughts about the new car I just bought, the medical bills and student loans I have to pay, my upcoming trip to New York, but most importantly, everyone I was going to disappoint.

The first thing I did was call my former boss and asked for my old delivery job back. It’s not much, but it’s something, and it offered some sense of stability. I needed to know there was somewhere for me to go come Monday to not completely lose it.

Then I began telling people, which was the hardest part. Fortunately, everyone has been so supportive and understanding, and I’m starting to see that it’s not so bad and could be worse. That’s what’s given me the courage to open up here.

The good news? My former coworkers gave me some good leads on future employment, and I have some interviews lined up. The bad news? They’re in Orlando.

Maybe this is the push I needed to change my situation and get out of Gainesville. Focusing on the good is the only thing getting me through my days, but it’s not enough to get rid of this overwhelming stress. In the last week, my life has turned upside down, and this is only the start of everything changing. And I’m not great at dealing with change.

I feel like I’m standing in the middle of a tornado, unable to control the world spinning around me. It’s making me physically sick, I’ve lost my appetite, and my mind is constantly buzzing with “what-ifs.”

It’s tough, but I know I’ll be ok.

I have some interviews, I have a part-time job, I have some freelance gigs, and I have all the time in the world to work out now. Things could be worse. So I’m going to keep thinking that something positive will come out of this and take it one day at a time.

I really hope you guys can forgive me if I don’t post as much as you’re used to, but I don’t like to write when I have nothing to say. Please keep reading and please keep checking back, because this blog is one of the most positive things I have right now, and I don’t want that to change.

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15 comments

  1. I’m so sorry girl, if I can be of any help let me know…even just to vent. I know you’re a talented girl who will find a job that fits you and happiness will come through this tough stuff! Xoxo, Kat

  2. I could take a lesson or two from you in not opening up too much on my blog…haha. In all seriousness though, I’m glad you did and I’m sorry to hear you are going through such a stressful time. It sounds like you have a great support system of friends happy to help you out. If you do end up in Orlando, let me know and we will grab a drink! I know it’s hard to see through all the stress and change right now, but everything will work out.

    • See, I love reading your blog because of how much you open up, so I figured I have to be real with you guys. It’s looking more and more like I’ll be in Orlando soon, so I’ll be taking you up on that drink!

  3. Hard times are what make us stronger. When my new husband and I got to our car after our cruise last year, my car wouldn’t start and had to be towed. After 4 hours at the mechanic (which we were blessed by the towing company and the parking lot attendant who didn’t charge us the hundreds of dollars it was to park and then be towed) I came home, received a call from a co-worker who was a good friend, asking me if she and her husband could come over, upon which visit she told me I was let go from my job. I went from the highest high of being newly married, a beautiful honeymoon, to lots of debt, a ruined friendship, and sadness/bitterness/devastation. I felt betrayed because she knew for a week and a half I was going to be let go and said nothing. I could have saved some last minute expenses, could have prepared, but no. I understand she probably didn’t want to ruin my honeymoon but it was so much worse that she knew. Friends are for good and bad, especially blogging friends, because even if you don’t think you’re being very open you truly are. We write things we usually don’t say outloud, sometimes it’s easy to type out our feelings rather than have a conversation about them. You are a strong and caring person who will come out the other side of this so much better. Keep your chin up and your stick on the ice 😀

    • Wow, Jennifer! I’m so sorry that happened to you, and I know my situation could’ve been so much worse. My blogging friends have been so supportive, and sometimes it’s a lot easier to talk to a stranger who will be level-headed about a situation than talk to someone close for you. Thank you for you kind words and for sharing your story with me. I’m glad to know that my readers can relate (even if it’s a crappy situation to relate to.)

  4. You aren’t disappointing anyone because this isn’t your fault. This is nothing to do with your talents or abilities – its down to the economy. Please don’t blame yourself. If anything, you should be proud of yourself for being so pragmatic.

    This must be such a blow to your confidence but you’ve already found another job (albeit part time). I can understand your financial worries completely but don’t let them rule you. Life will smile on you soon. Hang in there!

    • Thanks for being so understanding! I know it’s not my fault, but it’s hard to face it, especially since this was my first real job. I know it’ll make me stronger and will make me appreciate my next job so much more.

  5. Olga, I’m so sorry you are going through a difficult time. I am much much older than you, sadly 🙂 However the plus side of being older is knowing through experience that good things do come out of the seemingly bad! If I had not been dumped by more than one boyfriend, I would not be here with my amazing husband. Or had I not been forced to move cities and countries, I would not be here, living in Tampa, blissfully happy! Have faith! It may not feel like it now but one day you will look up and see that everything happened for a good reason. To free you up to receive bigger and better people, jobs, friends … For the time being, read stuff that is uplifting and inspiring. Learn about people who have overcome overwhelming obstacles who are better off today because of them. Have you read The Power by Rhonda Byrne (better than The Secret). So positive and insightful! Stay strong. Be passionate about what you do. Orlando has huge opportunities! And if you ever drop by in Tampa, we can grab a coffee together!? The best of your life is ahead! 🙂 This is the beginning, not the end!

    • Thanks so much for all your kinds words! I’ve heard great thing about all the opportunities in Orlando, and I would’ve never got a chance to take advantage of them had it not been for this situation. I hope one day we can get together for lunch in Tampa, and if I move, I’ll be much closer to all the Tampa Bay Lady Bloggers!

  6. I’m so sorry to hear about the job cut, and as hard as it is to take in, on the good side it is definitely an opportunity to experience more! I have the same mentality when it comes to posting if I have nothing to say – but that’s YOUR choice and no one will be disappointed or mad about it.

    Rock those interviews! Orlando is a pretty cool city if you get to know it well. You’ll be closer to us TBLBs, as well as the bigger chunk of Central FL Lady Bloggers:)

    Keep your head up, and like everyone else has said, if you need an ear, a shoulder, or wall to go postal on – we’re here for ya! <3

    • Thank you! It’s been so helpful to read all your posts and to know all my blogger friends have my back, especially all you wonderful ladies I met at the conference. I hope everything in Orlando works out! That way I can be closer to both blogging communities, and I’d have SO much new stuff to write about.

  7. Brittany @ GOtheXtraMile

    I’m so sorry to hear that, Olga. I know that must be super tough, but try to look on the bright side that maybe you got let go for a reason. Maybe that just means that something even BETTER is waiting for you, and this was the only way that you would find it. I have faith that something better definitely is in the works for you. Have faith 🙂 Keep your head up, and if you ever want to talk I’m here for you!

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